“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” Was the Son of God forsaken by his Father, or did he merely “felt” forsaken? Theology scholars are divided over the issue. But how should we take those unmistakable words of Jesus?
Once I read a story that may help us understand:
“In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. The room was empty except for a wall covered with small index card files. I got closer to the cards and read, “Friends I betrayed”, “Books I read”, Comfort I have given”, etc. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.
I was disturbed by some titles, “Things I have yelled at my brothers”, “Things I have done in my anger”, “Bad thoughts I had”. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: “No one must ever see these cards!” I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame. But then as I pushed away my tears, I saw Him. No, please, not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus.
I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Read the rest of this entry »

